No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.
Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters (via psych-facts)
Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same… It’s not that he wants to be a liar; it’s just that he doesn’t know the truth… “No, he loves me, he just makes me cry a lot. He knows all of my secrets and still wants to kiss me.” … I can still taste him in my mouth. I cut him out at the root, he was my favourite tree, rotting, threatening the foundations of my home. I had to leave, I felt lonely when he held me… You’re the song I rewind until I know all the words and I feel sick… His heart wasn’t as beautiful as his smile… We emotionally manipulated one another until we thought it was love. Forgive me, I was lonely so I chose you. I’m a lover without a lover. I’m lovely and lonely. I belong deeply to myself.
Warsan Shire (via jazminnhayes)